heLLOOooo blooOOgg

So yea, it's been awhile. SCHOOL. I have actually been doing GREEEAAAT on my detox/diet/torture...I have escaped the "cheating" epidemic...like twice in one weekend..woot woot. There is sooo many emotions that come with saying no to food and alcohol...It's like...one minute I am like proud and overwhelmed with my progress...and the next minute I am crying b/c i just want to eat my chip and salsa and not turn into a big fat cow instead of a skinny cow...

Today, made me sad. I want to LOSE weight fast and be skinnyyyy...and see results with a snap of a finger. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...wahhhhhhhhhhh wahhhhhhhhhhhh....okay, i'm over the drama moment.

What I can be happy about is...COZUMEL in one week. I shall be happy with my body and sport my bikini in front of all the brazillian girls in thongs. hmph...i'll show them my flabby booty is something to talk about...in a verrryyy good way. Beware girls....b/c here comes mooooooooooooooooo!!!!! =)

23 more days...

Well, I feel like I'm seeing progress =) but i'm on a time-crunch now! Sooo I have to super buckle down...lol. I had cereal for dinner so i feel guilty... I have been working out twice a day..and it is finally taking its toll on me. Whew but realizing how close it is to vacation makes me realize that I have no time to pout and skip my ANY workouts.

whew..numero DIAZ...(10 for all you white-folk) hahah!

WOW, worn SMOOTH out. Mindi and I have been hitting it twice at the gym and my body is ready to SHUT DOWN. It hurts soooo bad, but feels sooooo good. I feel the difference ALREADY. Usually I am so down on myself but I can really tell my determination is FOR REAL this time. Mindi helps motivate me by being a great workout partner...b/c i can COUNT on her to be at the gym. Seriously, having a good workout partner is crucial to maintaining fitness in my eyes. It's easy to tell yourself no but letting someone else down sucks...so we make ourselves go. My eating has been on spot <-- finally! My diet has always sabatoged me...but this time I AM KICKING butt! Lookout COZUMEL...b/c i am READDDYYY...almost..haha!

Motivation has KICKED in...

Whew..who knew it would take a trip to COZUMEL to put my game in high gear? LOL. Yesterday's workout was BRUTAL...i feel beat up and tortured ,<-- thanks Denise (haha). Really though, it was the kind of workout I needed. Mindi and I are going to two a days because she has a trip coming up too =) YAYY..i love having a workout partner. And the best part..she is competitive like me! Today we started the morning off with some sprints and i will be doing another workout after class! Wow, if the weight doesn't start coming off, I GIVE UP ON LIFE. hahaha....It feels good to be happy today, and not so much stuck on the "im fat, and there is no hope" day.

here's the real "skinny"..

So...I'M so pumped right now, i can't SLEEP. I just recieved the most AMAZING phone call EVER. ily kaLi aNNe littLe...and I can technically tell my blog, b/c no one reads it anyway!! I will say a special prayer every night..for God to bless you with a perfect angel...b/c no SINGLE person on this earth deserves this more than you and Clayton....=) =)

p.s. princess theme or cubs theme...that tis' the question?

luck number 7...yeah right

TODAY is TERRIBLE..i am lonely and really missing my friends. I have to stop and wonder...if it's my fault we don't hang out anymore. I just feel like I need someone to talk to and be there for ME right now...hell, maybe that's my problem. I make everything about ME, ME, ME! I will work on this.... I'm struggling with food. Yesterday I resisted chips and salsa from chili's and chips and salsa from Ironwood grill! SUCCESS. There is some satisfaction in being able to resist, but then there is always satifisfaction in eating it hahah. BUT..that isn't my goal. I'm so ready to see my results... I hope it is all worth it and then I can really stick with it!!!!!!! I am really really trying....

5th day...

So I am still doing great on the no diet, no soda... JUST WATER!! yay...but i have had like 6 popcorn chicken...haha!! which still don't count to me...but today has been kind of discouraging. I guess b/c i wear workout clothes all the time, i don't see my shape. Today I wore normal clothes and was in old navy...huge MIRRORS. I felt disgusted looking at my belly...tear. All I can do is ..KNOW that i am doing something about it and every "good" day brings me closer to my goal! Hoping today's workout kicks my butt and gives me the motivation i'm lacking!