heLLOOooo blooOOgg

So yea, it's been awhile. SCHOOL. I have actually been doing GREEEAAAT on my detox/diet/torture...I have escaped the "cheating" epidemic...like twice in one weekend..woot woot. There is sooo many emotions that come with saying no to food and alcohol...It's like...one minute I am like proud and overwhelmed with my progress...and the next minute I am crying b/c i just want to eat my chip and salsa and not turn into a big fat cow instead of a skinny cow...

Today, made me sad. I want to LOSE weight fast and be skinnyyyy...and see results with a snap of a finger. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...wahhhhhhhhhhh wahhhhhhhhhhhh....okay, i'm over the drama moment.

What I can be happy about is...COZUMEL in one week. I shall be happy with my body and sport my bikini in front of all the brazillian girls in thongs. hmph...i'll show them my flabby booty is something to talk about...in a verrryyy good way. Beware girls....b/c here comes mooooooooooooooooo!!!!! =)

23 more days...

Well, I feel like I'm seeing progress =) but i'm on a time-crunch now! Sooo I have to super buckle down...lol. I had cereal for dinner so i feel guilty... I have been working out twice a day..and it is finally taking its toll on me. Whew but realizing how close it is to vacation makes me realize that I have no time to pout and skip my ANY workouts.

whew..numero DIAZ...(10 for all you white-folk) hahah!

WOW, worn SMOOTH out. Mindi and I have been hitting it twice at the gym and my body is ready to SHUT DOWN. It hurts soooo bad, but feels sooooo good. I feel the difference ALREADY. Usually I am so down on myself but I can really tell my determination is FOR REAL this time. Mindi helps motivate me by being a great workout partner...b/c i can COUNT on her to be at the gym. Seriously, having a good workout partner is crucial to maintaining fitness in my eyes. It's easy to tell yourself no but letting someone else down sucks...so we make ourselves go. My eating has been on spot <-- finally! My diet has always sabatoged me...but this time I AM KICKING butt! Lookout COZUMEL...b/c i am READDDYYY...almost..haha!

Motivation has KICKED in...

Whew..who knew it would take a trip to COZUMEL to put my game in high gear? LOL. Yesterday's workout was BRUTAL...i feel beat up and tortured ,<-- thanks Denise (haha). Really though, it was the kind of workout I needed. Mindi and I are going to two a days because she has a trip coming up too =) YAYY..i love having a workout partner. And the best part..she is competitive like me! Today we started the morning off with some sprints and i will be doing another workout after class! Wow, if the weight doesn't start coming off, I GIVE UP ON LIFE. hahaha....It feels good to be happy today, and not so much stuck on the "im fat, and there is no hope" day.

here's the real "skinny"..

So...I'M so pumped right now, i can't SLEEP. I just recieved the most AMAZING phone call EVER. ily kaLi aNNe littLe...and I can technically tell my blog, b/c no one reads it anyway!! I will say a special prayer every night..for God to bless you with a perfect angel...b/c no SINGLE person on this earth deserves this more than you and Clayton....=) =)

p.s. princess theme or cubs theme...that tis' the question?

luck number 7...yeah right

TODAY is TERRIBLE..i am lonely and really missing my friends. I have to stop and wonder...if it's my fault we don't hang out anymore. I just feel like I need someone to talk to and be there for ME right now...hell, maybe that's my problem. I make everything about ME, ME, ME! I will work on this.... I'm struggling with food. Yesterday I resisted chips and salsa from chili's and chips and salsa from Ironwood grill! SUCCESS. There is some satisfaction in being able to resist, but then there is always satifisfaction in eating it hahah. BUT..that isn't my goal. I'm so ready to see my results... I hope it is all worth it and then I can really stick with it!!!!!!! I am really really trying....

5th day...

So I am still doing great on the no diet, no soda... JUST WATER!! yay...but i have had like 6 popcorn chicken...haha!! which still don't count to me...but today has been kind of discouraging. I guess b/c i wear workout clothes all the time, i don't see my shape. Today I wore normal clothes and was in old navy...huge MIRRORS. I felt disgusted looking at my belly...tear. All I can do is ..KNOW that i am doing something about it and every "good" day brings me closer to my goal! Hoping today's workout kicks my butt and gives me the motivation i'm lacking!

Day 2...

I cheated.......NOT!!! =) Woke up with a screaming headache so i did have to take some excedrin...which has caffenine but it was unavoidable. My eating was pretty good, but I'm starving as I write this. HAH. Even though I had a huge subway sandwich with the baked chips. Okay...i'm hungry again, for real. Anyway, my mood is still great...still feel strong and motivated. Im SORE, and thinking Denise is going to have a room full of dead-tired girls tomorrow. We SHALL see....I might roll out of bed and crawl into the gym, but this girl WILL be there....Closer and closer to my goal...i hope!! =)

Sucess- Day 1

hahaah, i just laugh because DAY 1, right....but by the end of this Day 1 will have marked my journey to regaining my own SELF-CONTROL. I loved my EXTREME 6 workout, and i love the girls I'm doing it with! Being competitive is my motto, so look out girls =) They are definitely some of my motiviation too. Denise (my amazing trainer) wrote a diet plan too, so I will follow that to the best of my ability. Overall, my day was good, no severy mood-swings...let's see how long that lasts. Moodiness=temptation.

If somone followd my blog, maybe i could hear some words of inspiration!! LOL!

My 6 week journey....

APRIL 4, 2011. Extreme 6...in the (drum-roll) ...DUNGEON. I'm pumped to be get more in shape! Well at least I am saying that when I'm not actually doing it. hah! I feel like death during, but so alive after. The whole working out part is just a step up from what I have already been doing. My trainer will now have 3 days a week to torture me, along with a specialized diet. <-- that pretty much sucks. But my own personal goal is to not drink alcohol, diet drinks, or sodas during the WHOLE PROCESS. It's a goad I want to desperately achieve..just for my own satisfaction. I want to take my self-control by the reigns...and really take control. I have no doubt that this will be DIFFICULT..but just one day at a time...I KNOW I CAN. Count down begins...May 16th, here comes a NEW, IMPROVED....Krystal!

Spring Break Blues...

Ahhh..spring break, at last. A break from going to classes but not so much from the homework. Oh well, right? That's life. I have been able to spend some quality time with my favorite boy in the world..Ayden! I love spoiling him... but I don't want him to be spoiled. Does that even make sense?

I'm going to be kicking myself tomorrow when I'm awake before the butt crack of dawn, thanks to my SWEET little boy...hah! Oh the joys of motherhood, I LOVE waking up early, I am such a happy camper...just ask my husband? Ok, I'm totally lieing. He NEVER sees me in the morning because I'm still sleeping, but yet I complain. WHO CARES? It's his choice to get up at 5..hello, T.J., I think you missed your memo..your out of the Marines now! =)

Hoping to have a PHENOMENAL weekend with some great girls...some much needed girl time! You know, I love all my friends, but espcially the ones who actually devote their time to girl's night. PLANNED too, not just randomly b/c it's convenient. Yeah, that sounds mean, but its true! Mmk...now that I got that off my chest... i FEEL better. hahahha....ok, I'm delirious.

Peace out